PREGUNTA!!!

Alguien a tenido que tomar Novotiral? es una medicina para la tiroides, pero no puedo encontrar nada de in de ella... alguien please help me??

I woke up today and my dog had decided that urinating in my sandal was a wise decision…

That’s how my day started. For the first time in a long time I realized that I was stressed more then what I usually allow myself to stress about anything, last night I could not sleep at all, just thinking of all the things that I had to do in the following weeks and I came to the conclusion, I am screwed and I did it all by my lone self, see when we come out of a bad relationship, we can screw up real bad and always blame it on the break up, this is some of the lame excuses that we use “It’s because of what that asshole did to me” or “it was a getting over him/her face” or (I love this one)”it’s because of him/her that I am this way now” but in my case there Is no bad break up or anything to blame it on, I just didn’t administrate myself well enough to be financially and emotionally stable, because even though money doesn’t buy happiness it sure makes life a little more easier and makes freedom feel like what it actually is, freedom, which at this point if you noticed, many emotions are involved. So going back to my dog urinating in my sandal, that little creature is about to become my dinner, since I am broke and lonely, how they say “I am going to eat my feelings away” and I am sure feeling something for my dog right about now, I actually thought about the seasonings that I am using, see out here in Mexico they have crazy stories about people making a dish called “babacoa” and using dog meat for it. Well as we speak and looking up barbacoa recipes…. Jajaja… Ok in the serious side of things, I know I am stressed and broke, but I will be ok, because God did say if you believe in him leave him all your worries in his hands and he will take care of them for you, I do believe in God.

Mr. Right?

Really? There is one? See I heard my friends and acquaintances always talk about "Mr. Right" I was told, "just wait for Mr. Right" he will come around and you will Know, really? Now the question is WHERE THE HELL IS HE? Because I am tired of waiting and really starting to think that is time to settle for Mr. Wrong or Mr. Horny/brainless/dumb ass!

I am tired of waiting...

Cyber Friends....

Ok for many years I have been talking to people that I do not have any Idea of who they are, LOL, I know crazy huh, however some of those "Cyber friends" have become good friendships in a crazy, weird, annoying way, hahahaah …but is it sick, that I as a very smart, talented, full of personality woman have to have friends online that I don’t even know in person?... I am starting to wonder if all this messengers and websites are becoming my social life, are they becoming the new walk in the park or hanging out with the friend’s thing that I used to do before, IN PERSON! …Don’t get me wrong messengers are good for long distance communication with family and friends, but communication within the same town, on the messenger? That I do consider stupid, how hard is to get together to have a cup of coffee, or meeting a friend the old fashion way, you know FACE to FACE!... why have we allowed ourselves to become a “Cyber friend”? I don’t even think that we realize when we became one, we just started staying away from the world and slowly became cyber people, Scary huh?

Well just a thought, most of the friend on line are not real friends, Real friends are there next to you to help you when you are down, a real friend will not just write a cold “I am sorry I hope everything works out”… So reality check, “Cyber friends are not real friends” don’t become one!

30's

Well i just turn 30, here is the weird part of it, I feel lost, I feel different, I know it’s just another day of our lives, however the thought of being 30 and single and to top that no Kids, what does that mean? is it possible that God have a different plan for me? Is it possible that I am just destined to be single? Or is it that I am too hard to understand and loved, that that’s why I am still damn single? What its wrong with me? Or better yet, what’s so great about me, that I can’t be shared with someone else? I know they say that woman is like wine, however, have you ever seen an old bottle of wine never being open for over 30 yrs??? See my point?...lol

I don’t know I guess I am thinking too much about it...

Confused...........

We all have our ups and downs, sometimes we feel great and others we are nothing, sometimes it’s a beautiful day and others it’s a cloudy day, why is it that we can’t deal with some of those moods sometimes? Why is it that we feel like we can’t breathe and we felt like screaming at the same time? You know I think all we need to do its relay a little more in God and forget about the rest, I do love my life it’s just a little difficult sometimes….

All I know is that I dont know nothing....

See I've been so cut up in other things that involve everything except for what I truly love, I forgot that it was a whole world to explore and I got stuck in this material world, I got stuck on nothing… that’s sad, it's sad when you become something else besides yourself, it's sad when someone becomes someone thanks to you and you still nobody thanks to them, I believe in others, but have doubts about me, so how did I get to this point in my life? how did I become someone that I don’t like to be, how did I become someone that everyone loves and I don’t even know who that person is, how did I end up happy on the outside and empty on the inside, how did I become someone other than ME?!... Why do people really, truly and faithfully loves me? And I don’t have the courage of loving myself? Why is it that god fill's my heart with Joy and it goes away so quick, how do I change that? How do I become the true me? How do I tell the world who and how I am? How do I get the courage to be me and stop being who they Love? How is it that I allow myself to be me?